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Entries from July 2008

Tradition…..(music)…..TRADITION!

July 31, 2008 · 1 Comment

My friend Chris just wrote a blog entry on the current (well, ongoing) wrestling match that Mennonites are going through regarding their particular tradition.  For decades, many Mennonites have toyed with the idea of going Evangelical™ saying that Anabaptist distinctives didn’t speak to our cultural setting.  Chris, rightly I think, challenges this.  You should read it, really.

Ironically, I’m a baptist who thinks that baptist distinctive speak all to well to our culture setting – creating a toxic red tide.

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Stage Manager

July 30, 2008 · 2 Comments

I kinda wanted to do something “just for fun” today.  So I translated 1 Corinthians 12 (yes, I find that fun), wrote some e-mails, thought ahead for my fall Sunday School class, and did this video of my new presenter remote.  I had been using Salling Clicker – but I just got an iPod touch and they don’t have a version for the Touch yet – Stage Hand is amazing.

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I shouldn’t have called…

July 29, 2008 · 4 Comments

Yes, I know that – but I’m tired.  I’m getting ahead of myself, let’s step back.

Two weeks ago we were outside for worship.  It was hot, but it was also extremely humid so that the basement wasn’t an option.  Not more than five minutes before worship began a gentlman came up to me wanting to know, “Why on earth we are outside?”  I’ve dealt with this gentleman before, he’s a bit rough around the edges (to say the least) so I just told him, “We’re out here, because this is where we are today.”  He got indignant, “Well who makes these decisions?  Who thought it would be a good idea to be outside today, it’s hot!”  I said, “I do, and this is where we are.”  I put my hand on his shoulder and said, “Look if you don’t want to be outside, go home and enjoy the air conditioning – you don’t have to be here.”  Well, he stayed, and complained to anyone within ear-shot.  After the offering, making sure he was over-heard, he took off.  One of the families who has tried to befriend this gentleman over the years (and the last people he complained to), was a wonderful encouragement to me after worship and a following picnic, “I was good to be out here today.”  Sue, I know you probably won’t read this, but may God bless you for your well-timed kind words (which are a habit of yours for just about everyone who crosses your path).

This past Sunday this same gentleman shows up an hour before worship (no Sunday school during the summer).  He never shows up early, ever.  I wave and say, “Hi” a couple of times.  No response.  He goes inside, and then comes out.  I wave again, nothing.  He drops his offering into the offering plate and turns to walk away.  I say, “Hi” again, this time into the microphone.  No response.

This morning get a call on the answering machine with an irate man with whom I’ve had run-ins before.  He claims to be a neighbor, but I’m not sure exactly where he’s supposed to live.  He says he saw this man wandering around and I had “no right to treat him that way.”  Second he says that I treat old people meanly.  Third, he says he doesn’t care for me much personally.

Well, I know he saw nothing because I know all the neighbors who have a visual of our worship area – so I know that his claim to have personally seen something is (in all likelyhood) a lie.  Second, I’m so tired of the “treat old people” meanly accusation.  I really am.  My most favorite human-being on the planet was my “PopPop,” who taught me more about living than anyone on the planet.  There are older people people in Central who I will gladly defer to, and have a deep respect for.  If anything, I expect more from older people because of my past history with my PopPop and the fact that they’ve been trying to follow Jesus longer.  I guess some older folks think this means I don’t like them, because I try to hold them to the ideals they claim to have – rather than give them what they want.  But this does not mean, “I don’t like old people.”  Frankly, that accusation hurts deeper than anyone could possibly know – attacking the relationship I had with a man I adored.  Good grief, after his death I kept PopPop’s picture as my desktop wallpaper for over a year.  I needed to see him – when I finally changed wallpapers, it was a difficult moment.  Kind of my final good-bye.  I think it’s a testimony to my love for him that whenever someone is raised up to strike a deep blow in my heart that’s where they go – but, oh, it hurts.  It hurts.

So I shouldn’t have called.  You never deal with a proxy – ever.  It’s one of the first rules of conflict, and one that never has pretty results when broken.  That I called back is a big sign that I’m stretching too thin – I’ve put off my vacation too long and allowing too much to interfere with my self-care because of it.  I just couldn’t keep myself from calling, and I should have.  The results from the call were predictable:

  • I’m not interested in the gentleman who complained, I just want his money.
  • “The neighbors and people in the Church say you don’t like old people.”
  • You’re not a real man of God, you shouldn’t have a full-time church.  You should leave.

I knew this was going to happen even before I called, it’s part of the destructive cycle that I called at all.  I encouraged the very cycle I strive to break here.  I forgot when when you confront proxies who like to lob grenades they just laugh and detonate a bomb in your face.  I screwed up – and now I feel pretty dang worthless.  For the last couple of weeks I feel like my life was being sucked out of me, now I’m flapping around like a uninflated balloon.

Sometimes, pastoring sucks.  I’ll have to dig out that number and apologize for calling that gentleman at all – and losing my temper.  Sigh.  Do I really have to wait until Sunday to get away?

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Whose banner is it, anyway?

July 26, 2008 · Leave a Comment

I just caught a segment on some first time voters on CNN, one line during the interview caught my attention and gave me the chills.  The two first time voters were talking about war (in general) and here is what one of the first time voters ended with, “Well, we don’t like war, but sometimes it’s necessary.  And I hope that the people who are calling Jesus is the ‘Prince of Peace’ would also believe that he has our banner and is leading us into battle.”

In the one statement you have the reason why nationalism and Christianity should not be mixed.  Jesus does not, and never has, taken up “our banner” (with the “our” being the USA).  When Christians follow Jesus, we come under his banner.  I understand that this first time voter didn’t mean to blur the line between her understanding of the Kingdom of God and the kingdoms of this world – but, see, that’s the point.  When Christianity becomes a nationalistic religion people become unaware of when blur the line between the Kingdom we’re called to be advancing and the kingdom in which we currenly reside.

Can Christians take pride in their country, and serve in the armed forces?  These are questions that Christians have been asking and answering in different ways for centuries.  I’m not going to pretend to answer them definatively in one blog post!  I do wish, however, that the Christians who are saying that Jesus is taking up “our banner” here in the US would understand that there are believers in other countries (some of which may not be particularly friendly towards the US) who might be holding the same confused belief.

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Worship Wars….Kicking Up Again

July 25, 2008 · 11 Comments

Jesus found me at a point in history where the “worship wars” were in full swing, though I was both chronologically and in faith to realize it at the time.  Thankfully, I came to faith in a Mennonite environment where people still knew how to sing so hymns tended to be sung well (oh, 606, thing of beauty).  Most of my friends in High School liked singing praise music better, but they tended to also sing that well.  In short, hymns verses praise music wasn’t really an argument I was involved with my first two years as a disciple.  I could have been, had I gone to some of the Mennonite congregations that were sparring over the issue – but I was mercifully spared this for the most part.

As such, I developed a much different perspective regarding worship music than a lot of the folks I met in college and seminary – many of whom only wanted to sing praise songs exclusively because that’s what “God is doing today.”  One gentleman I met in seminary was particularly convinced that praise music was the only way to be on board with what “God is doing today.”

I tend to have a deep skepticism regarding statements like that.  In fact, I find it completely bogus.  Good grief, even the Prophets had moments of looking toward the Lord and saying, “What are you doing to me!”  I have no prople with people saying, “Well, it looks like God’s doing something here.”  But the firm declaration of “this is what God is doing,” just rings hollow to me.

Having said that, the style of worship music among Protestants that connects me to the story best is a praise team.  The source of the songs doesn’t matter to me all that much (hymnal, other church, self-written, off of a CD), as long as the content of the song is relatively deep and theologically vetted.  There are songs that grate on my nerves in the hymnal (“I Come to the Garden Alone….” bleck) and out of contemporary music, (“Days of Elijah,” catchy tune – the words make no sense whatsoever and I trip over “There is no God like Jehovah”).  Occassionally, I’d rather just chant some liturgy – but good luck getting that done at a Baptist Church.

My take on worship music tends to confuse worship warriors who tend to want to take sides.  I tend to prefer hymns, but I like them played on electric guitars.  It confuses worship warriors because, even when they begin calling for a truce, continue to think that everything is all or nothing.  A hymn means an organ, and a praise song means a praise band – truces are called so people don’t lose what “territory” they have left to them.  When I start hearing/reading people who remind people about the need for one style of music over the other – it usually means that one side or the other is done licking their wounds and are ready to go another round or two (oftern citing that they don’t want to fight, they just want to make people recognize the importance of whatever style they advocate).  It’s a mess.

Lately, I’ve been seeing more blog entries in defense of keeping hymns in worship – which may spark the very first worship war fought primarily in the blogosphere.  Maybe I’m contributing to it right now, I certainly hope not.  To say that I’ve been disappointed with the posts I’ve read is an understatement.  They are disappointing not because I think hymns are “so 19th Century,” but because the arguments being made in favor of keeping hymns alive in worship are based off of over-blown, antecdotal, or historically innacurate information.  These poor defenses of keeping hymns alive in worship affect me so deeply because I absolutely agree that hymns should never be expunged from worship (even if instrumentation needs to change).  Let me sum up some of the bad arguments and give some responses:

  • Praise music is harder to sing

Sorry, have you ever tried to sing a tent revival song from the early 20th Century?  The rhythm is ofter so weird the only thing I can do is listen.  Stylistic changes do make cross generational singing a bit messy if you have the mentality that one style has to “win.”  But if we can acknowledge that that the style we prefer (and it really is only a matter of preference) is difficult for folks who don’t share our preference to sing, maybe we can develop some empathy for each other.  That would be a good thing – don’t blow it by saying only one style is difficult for some people, though, that’s just not true.

  • With only the words congregations can’t learn the songs ahead of time

I wish that every blogger, worship leader, pastor, and lay-person in the English speaking world had to take a course on the history of English Hymnody before being allow to have  publicly stated opinion on worship.  I really do.  Hymnals as we have them today are recent inventions (yes, in terms of the history of English hymns 100 years is recent).  Hymns were written without tunes in mind – just words.  They were handed off to the music director who created a tune, or adapted a tune, for the words.  Very few people in worship would have known the hymns ahead of time (in John Newton’s case, the children of the congregation may have learned a hymn earlier  – but that was it).  Not knowing songs in advance is not a new development in English-speaking worship.

What’s more, with the pervasiveness of the internet and portable recorded music, it is more likely now than in any part of history that people will know a song sung in a local church for the first time before it’s introduced in worship.

  • Congregations sing songs differently

When hymns were written w/o tunes in mind every congregation that sung a hymn would have sung it differently.  Over time, certainly tunes would “stick” more than others (which is why some songs can be sung to more than one tune even in hymnals today) – but many hymns didn’t find a common tune for decades after they’d been penned.  “Amazing Grace,” for example, didn’t get linked to it’s most familiar tune until the mid 1800’s, decades after the author’s death.  Worship survived, and even thrived, in such a diverse environment.  I think it can survive the relatively slight variations modern worship songs have between congregations.

  • Hymns preserve Christian theology

This isn’t false as must as it is over-stated.  I once taught a Sunday school class on the theology of hymns, and fully embrace that the purpose of much of Christian hymnody was to teach common lay-folk the great doctrines of the faith.  English hymnody is no different in this respect.  I get chills, every time I sing “Joy to the World,” and “And Can It Be” for just this reason – the way in which the lyrics are steeped in the Biblical narative and Christian doctrine is stunning and beautiful.

Here’s the thing – not all hymns do this.  For every “Lift High the Cross” there is “I Come to the Garden Alone.”  The latter being a song more sappy and sentimental than any praise chorus put out in the late 80’s and early 90’s (which is saying a lot, given that many of those songs are nothing more than “Jesus is my boyfriend” music).  Advocates who strive to see hymns kept in worship need to be much more honest that hymns need to be weeded almost as much as the corpus of contemporary(ish) praise music.  Thankfully, contemporary(ish) music has begun to show some good theological saavy – but which both young an old folks have got to understand that people might not necessarily want the theological hymns.  For many folks, what they want is simply what they want.  The entire church needs to be taught how to embrace the depth of worship, no matter what style – so pointing out that one does a better job (when, really, it doesn’t necessarily) doesn’t really help matters.

  • Hymns are more reverential

Please.  This again shows a complete lack of awareness of the history of English hymnody.  Churches that sang hymns, as late at the early 1800’s, were considered low class and “overly enthusiastic.”  In Anglican circles such people were labeled “methodists.”  What were these overly enthusiastic folks singing?  The “more reverential” hymns that people insist are more appropriate for worship today.

All in all, when it comes to worship wars (even the one currently kicking up in the blogosphere), “There is nothing new under the Sun.”  People are still making the same old arguments about music styles that they’ve been making since as early as the 1700’s.  Only the names making the claims have changed.  Also, please note, I critique the side that is advocating for Hymns (not necessarily hymns exclusively) because that is the mentality I have a stronger affinity for.

For my part, I try to swallow my pride as much as I possibly can regarding music styles.  I try to sing choruses as loud as I sing hymns (when I can handle it that early in the morning), I also sing songs that I, personally, can’t stand (though I do draw the line at theological error).  Worship isn’t about me, and it’s certainly not making sure that the things I prefer happen.  Worship warriors, for all their great statements about what “God is doing” and “retaining tradition” seem to miss that point.

Of course, all my orthodox friends are probably reading this and thinking, “Wow, all our music is liturgically prescribed – you Protestants are certainly whacked when it comes to music.”

Some good reading on worship music, as well as some history on English hymnody, would be:

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Dr. Horrible

July 22, 2008 · 2 Comments

What do you get when you combine the (insane) genius of Joss Wendon, unheroic heroes, villains with a conscience, a writers strike, and some catchy tunes?  You get Dr. Horrible’s Sing-Along Blog.

This odd short-film/musical is about a B-list villain who, through his vlog, longs for both world domination and the love of the woman he adores from the next washing machine.  No, it doesn’t make sense, it’s a farce, it doesn’t have to make sense.  It’s made all the more surreal by the choice of Neil Patrick Harris (yes, Doogie Howser) as the character of Dr. Horrible.

The movie is PG-13 for a couple of themes (which actually add to the plot, such as it is), so don’t go telling people that it’s wholesome family entertainment (my 8 year old won’t be watching it, but then she has no idea who Doogie Howser is so she won’t the biggest joke anyway).  Yet, it’s an amazing example of what can be done on a shoestring budget by talented people who eschew the “classic” models of creation and distribution.  It is a witness to the power of the Internet to democratize information.

The ending is also profound, but I won’t give it away if you haven’t seen it yet.

Sadly, at the moment you can only get Dr. Horrible on iTunes – the streaming version was taken down on Sunday as advertized.

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What Questions To Ask Potential Pastors

July 22, 2008 · 9 Comments

I was asked by a friend of mine to put some questions together for her father’s church – which is just getting to the point of interviewing potential candidates. Below are the questions I submitted, along with my thoughts as to why they should ask them. What questions would you add to the list?

  1. Name four books you’ve read in the past year. If they can’t do this, wave good-bye. If they are only reading pop Christian writers, that’s not good either.
  2. Ask how far in advance they plan sermons. 3 months is acceptable, 6 months is better (I do a year, but I’m a freak). Any other answer means the pastor is likely only good at maintenance.
  3. Ask about hobbies, hobbies are good.
  4. Ask for them to summarize their beliefs. I know baptists “don’t do creeds” but I think that’s kinds dumb. At any rate, a clear sumary of basic Christian beliefs is what you’re looking for: Trinity, Incarnation, Jesus’ dual natures, purpose of the Church, etc. If they can’t do this, or can only say what they are against, you don’t want them.
  5. Ask about their friendships. Pastors who don’t have some deep friendships are burnouts waiting to happen.
  6. Ask to hear 2 regrets they have in their ministry experience, if they can’t, or if they are only regretful about what “they did/didn’t” do, you don’t want them.

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Just Playing Around

July 15, 2008 · 2 Comments

Sometimes I wonder if I don’t listen to more music is because it gets my mind wondering about too many new ideas.  Today I was walking home through the Sanctuary while listening to my iPod and thought, “Wow, I wonder how that would look on DV?  Oh, and I’ve been meaning to play with some new features in Final Cut – I wonder how that would work?”

So, I end up with the video below.  I kinda like it as a good test of slowing down video and freeze-framing in Final Cut.

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Written Up

July 15, 2008 · 1 Comment

Thanks to the dilligent work of Larry, one of Central’s members (and Blue Claws Member), Central Baptist Church was featured in the “Neighbors” section of the Philadelphia Inquirer this past Sunday.  I mention this not because I’m happy to have the free publicity for the Church (though it’s kinda nice, I have to say) – rather, I mention this because of the way that Larry described the mission of Central.

Central Baptist seeks to involve its members and friends in the continuing story of the gospel by learning, living and proclaiming the gospel of Jesus Christ.

Now, the latter line is from Central’s “offical” mission statement,  “Learning, Living, and Proclaiming the Gospel of Jesus Christ.”  I like it, I can work with a statement like that as we all move forward together in Jesus Christ – I’m glad Larry saw that it was included.  The first part, however, are his own words – and it does a good job summing up the message I’ve been preaching at Central for the past five years.  A message that that story of the Bible is our story – that we live and move and breath in it’s narrative.  That Larry managed to describe this message, and also tie it into our “official” mission-statment, is a great joy to me.  In fact, as you may have picked up in a recent entry, if the folks of Central truly understand themselves to be intimately part of the Biblical Narrative by the time I leave here – I will consider my pastorate a “success.”

So, thanks Larry – you help keep me painfully hopeful.

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Kingdom Collision is put together…

July 13, 2008 · Leave a Comment

I started putting together my sermons for the coming year this past week.  It’s a helpful discipline to me and I both look forward to it, and loath doing it, every year.  It’s fun to see everything laid out – but oh the mental errors I make doing it!

As I put together the readings for Kingdom Collision, I found myself wondering, “What is my purpose for this, anyway?”  Right from the start I knew I did’t want to be doing the same project that my friend, and fellow Eastern Alum, is currently doing.  I also didn’t want to do the same project that Greg Boyd had done back in 2004.  It’s not because these other projects aren’t worth working from, it’s just that they’re already being done – by folks better than myself at working them out.

I also have the audacious idea that I’d rather be working on a project that would almost seem like prolegomena for the other projects – a sermon series which helps establish a “Biblical language” with which the disciples gathered at Central Baptist might be able to use in their political conversations.  Conversations which may include the projects referenced above.

It is clear to me that our thinking about the mix of religion and politics needs to change.  It is certainly true that our understanding of Jesus’ relationship to politics in his own day need to be fundamentally refocused.  The centuries of belief that Jesus had nothing to say about politics in his day (desiring only to “save souls”) has created a vacuum in that aspect of our shared public life.  A vacuum which has been filled with all the “weapons” of any worldly political arsenal.  If Jesus had nothing to say about how to be involved in “politics,” after all, then we’ll have to take our example of how to wield political power from other sources – ironically, Christians on both our artifically constructed ends of the “left-right” spectrum have taken up these non-Christ-like examples in the name of “honoring Christ.”

The thing is, Jesus is portrayed in the Gospels as speaking on politics frequently.  The problem in forming the Kingdom Collision series was not the lack of material – but the over-abundance of it! This should come as no surprise to Christians.  After all, one of the “offices” Jesus took up was that of Prophet – and even a cursory reading of the prophetic literature in the Old Testament will tell you that the prophets were political by virtue of their calling.  Prophets challenged power structures to become in sync with the Covenant the Lord had made with Israel – and any time you challenge a power structure, you’ve entered the world of politics.

We’ll look at this prophetic picture of Jesus throughout Kingdom Collision – not to undermine the other offices of Jesus, but to show how the Prophetic office of Jesus great impacts the way that Jesus works out his Priestly and Kingly offices, to this very day.

The question for me is, “What would make this series a success?”  I can honestly say  I’ll feel that we’ve  been “successful” even one person who walks this journey with me starts listening to political news commentary, speeches and debates with the question, “How does this sound like what Jesus was talking about?” in the heart.  It’s a dangerous question to ask – one that might just turn the world upside-down.

I sure hope people ask it.

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